life's challenges

Filaments of Your Being

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This morning, my heart was heavy. Sometimes, no matter where one looks, on this material state of being, of existing on this very troubled planet, one cannot escape the effects of all of it, in the heart, the emotions … it robs a bit of inner peace. As human beings, we bring all these emotions into the material, to ourselves, our heart, mind, our tense body … we internalize all these things; it is only human to do so.

After a good conversation with God, and giving it all to Jesus, I feel much better, renewed. This morning, after my conversation, I closed my eyes and relaxed a bit. My cat was in my lap. She is 17 years old, lost pretty much her eyesight, and although she manages very well around the house, she has become much more dependent on me. She fell asleep on my lap while purring with contentment. A thought crossed my mind; it was, “My love is bigger than the filaments of your being.” I did not understand it at first, but a bit later, I did.

Upon meditating on this, I realized that I should look up the word filaments. Although I knew the meaning of the word very well, I felt that I needed to deepen what I knew about it a bit more in order to understand the phrase, so I did. After consulting several dictionaries online, all of them pretty much settling on the word filament as a fine or thin fiber, thread, material, a component of a structure …, the definition that caught my attention was the one used in biology – a filament is a long thread comprised of protein subunits. These subunits can be made of single protein molecules or polypeptide chains that join to form …(study.com) After analyzing the word, I understood what God was trying to tell me, in my mind and heart.

I understood that His love is bigger than my physical state of being, it surpasses all of it; after all, He created every filament of my being, of my existence. I understood that while the troubles and feelings of living on this earth, this material place, might be overwhelming at times, He understands me, and He wants to assure me that His love surpasses all that, into the other part of my being, my soul, and my spirit. In other words, He was telling me, “I got you girl; I more than got you.” Because He holds together every thread, every fiber/filament of my being and existence. That is all I need to know.

The Last Thread

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One Day at a Time

When life does not seem to go as expected and might feel as if we are being tested beyond our strength, it may seem as if we are hanging from the last thread. The thread seems to unravel more and more with every feeling, emotion, and physical/mental response we experience during times of turmoil, sadness, and desperation. Sometimes, the intensity of what we are experiencing is so difficult to endure that exhausted as we feel, we might as well let go of that last thread. Some people do. Others see a little bit of hope on that last bit of strength and hold on for dear life, praying for better days or a miracle, and somehow, it happens. As long as you don’t let go, it happens. You are made stronger as you hold on tight; you are renewed as you pray every single day, and sometimes, even every single moment of the day. Somehow, you are lifted up, changed, renewed and refreshed, and you see the light around you. Where there was darkness, now there is light, and you can begin to see it.

Because that act of faith, of holding on, of praying, you were lifted up and made anew. Something changed. You experienced the love of God, a miracle. Holding on tight to the last Thread? Don’t let go; pray. You are being sustained by the love of God, who heard you pray, and your miracle is about to happen.

Looking Up to God

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Have you ever felt so discouraged, disenchanted, challenged to your maximum breaking point, and ready to quit it all? I believe that at one point, every one of us will confront “the big test” of life, and if you haven’t, then count your blessings because these are many. It doesn’t matter how responsible, good person, perfectionist, excellent planner … you are, one day your challenge will come. It is only designed to make you better, to teach you, if you are willing to learn, to show you, if you are receptive, to open your eyes, if you want to see. However, when human strength and courage doesn’t match your hope, look up to God, and accept the help that is already there, waiting for you to extend your hand and grab it. God will see you through; He will help you conquer your challenge.

I once heard a speaker say, “It is not over till’ you quit.” “It is as you will it.” I believe it is so, but when my human strength fails or doesn’t seem enough, there is peace in knowing that the one who made me stands beside me.

I knew you before I formed you in your mother’s womb.

Jeremiah 1:5