This morning, my heart was heavy. Sometimes, no matter where one looks, on this material state of being, of existing on this very troubled planet, one cannot escape the effects of all of it, in the heart, the emotions … it robs a bit of inner peace. As human beings, we bring all these emotions into the material, to ourselves, our heart, mind, our tense body … we internalize all these things; it is only human to do so.

After a good conversation with God, and giving it all to Jesus, I feel much better, renewed. This morning, after my conversation, I closed my eyes and relaxed a bit. My cat was in my lap. She is 17 years old, lost pretty much her eyesight, and although she manages very well around the house, she has become much more dependent on me. She fell asleep on my lap while purring with contentment. A thought crossed my mind; it was, “My love is bigger than the filaments of your being.” I did not understand it at first, but a bit later, I did.

Upon meditating on this, I realized that I should look up the word filaments. Although I knew the meaning of the word very well, I felt that I needed to deepen what I knew about it a bit more in order to understand the phrase, so I did. After consulting several dictionaries online, all of them pretty much settling on the word filament as a fine or thin fiber, thread, material, a component of a structure …, the definition that caught my attention was the one used in biology – a filament is a long thread comprised of protein subunits. These subunits can be made of single protein molecules or polypeptide chains that join to form …(study.com) After analyzing the word, I understood what God was trying to tell me, in my mind and heart.

I understood that His love is bigger than my physical state of being, it surpasses all of it; after all, He created every filament of my being, of my existence. I understood that while the troubles and feelings of living on this earth, this material place, might be overwhelming at times, He understands me, and He wants to assure me that His love surpasses all that, into the other part of my being, my soul, and my spirit. In other words, He was telling me, “I got you girl; I more than got you.” Because He holds together every thread, every fiber/filament of my being and existence. That is all I need to know.